Cy,
I want to write to you and tell you how special you are to me. I don’t want you to ever forget it. You are my firstborn son. You made me a mommy! I am so, so thankful for you! For all of my life I wanted to get married and I wanted to be a mom. I dreamed of both things from a young age. I couldn’t wait to fall in love with the man that God created for me. I was so blessed to meet your daddy at college in 2004. I met him because he was the roommate of my friend, Josh. Your daddy was quiet and pretty shy but he also had a fun and goofy personality. He was fun to be around and he made me feel happy. We spent evenings together talking in the PSU and playing pool. We got to know each other better and we started officially dating on February 25, 2005. We were at Walmart in the air freshener aisle when Daddy asked me to be his girlfriend. There wasn’t a whole lot to do in Mount Vernon so we ended up at Walmart a lot! We dated for almost 3.5 years before we got married. On August 9, 2008, I became his wife!
We knew we wanted kids and saw kids in our future pretty soon. Daddy and Mommy were both very family oriented and we didn’t see anything more important than family. We were excited to start our own family.
I can’t remember exactly but I think we decided we would officially start trying for a baby in January 2010. We prayed for God to bless us with a baby in his perfect timing.
We were at your Mamaw and Papaw Franks’s house for a weekend in June and that Sunday while singing worship songs, I realized that I could be pregnant! I was so happy and excited and my mind started wondering, dreaming, and planning! I remember on the drive home I was texting a girl I worked with about how I thought maybe I was pregnant. I planned out how I would secretly find out and surprise your daddy.
The next morning while Daddy was at work, I went and bought a pregnancy test. I couldn’t wait to take it but I was also a little nervous. This was such a big moment. My first ever pregnancy test. I thought things like: I might really be a mommy, is this really true and what if it’s negative. I wanted it to be positive so bad. I was so excited about the thought of having my first baby.
2 pink lines showed up and tears strolled down my cheeks! I was pregnant with my first baby!
I got my surprise all ready for Daddy and couldn’t wait for him to get home. It was close to Father’s Day so I got him his first Father’s Day card. Daddy wondered what was up and then smiled so big when he opened the box! He was so excited about our little baby! Daddy was dreaming of a son from that moment!
I enjoyed a wonderful pregnancy and on February 16, 2011 I woke up having contractions. We got everything ready to go to the hospital just in case, but I went on to work figuring I was only in the very beginning stages.
My principal insisted I leave work and go to the doctor, the doctor said I was just having Bracton Hicks, Daddy went back to work, and THEN the real contractions came. I knew without a doubt that this was the real thing!
Cy Evan, you were born at 1:45 am on Thursday, February 17, 2011. It was love at first sight. You were absolutely beautiful! The cord had been wrapped around your neck 3 times, so the nurses had to intervene to get you crying. When we finally heard that first cry, it was the most beautiful sound we had ever heard!
Cy, you made me a mommy and you changed my life. In an instant, you were part of our family and it felt like you had always been with us. It became hard to remember what life was like before you. You consumed our every thought!
My first 6 months home with you were some of the best days of my life. The whole time was absolutely amazing. I loved being your mommy and spending every day with you! I loved my new life! My favorite part was holding you as you slept and watching you smile in your sleep.
In August 2011, Mommy had to go back to work. It was hard to do because I absolutely loved my 6 months home with you. But God called me to be a mom and a teacher, and I had to obey the call.
Life with you has been absolutely incredible. We have been through so much as a little family. We had your baby sister Addie and you were, and continue to be, the sweetest big brother to her! You sleep with your Addie bear every night and you think of her often.
We then had another baby sister! It was hard for you when you first found out we were having another girl, but you love Grace in such a beautiful way. You take good care of her and you are so gentle with her. You talk so sweet to her and you love to play with her. When we are around other people, they tell us how amazed they are because of how nice you are to your little sister! She absolutely adores you and you both remind me daily how blessed I am.
Over the past year and a half, you have gone to 2 preschools and played on your first tball team! It has been so much fun! Your preschool teachers always told me how sweet you are and what a great friend you are to everyone. Mrs. Debby said that she has never met a child as empathetic as you, Cy. Daddy and Mommy felt so proud of you when she told us that. You definitely had the most energy of anyone in your class and were the most talkative, but you also had the biggest heart! Your best friend is Connor. You learned how to spell and write your name. You learned the colors. Your learned your phone number and address. You know almost all the letters and you can count to 12. You would be able to go much further, but you get stuck on 13, 14, and 15 because they sound so similar. You usually jump from 13 to 16.
Daddy was your tball coach and you both had a blast! You were the red team and you were number 1! You loved the game but you also had the hardest time staying focused! During games, you were often running in circles and throwing dirt in the air! Your teammates learned your middle name because your daddy said it so much! You always had multiple people there to watch you play and everyone was so proud of you! You are such a good hitter and an overall great little ball player!
Tomorrow is your first soccer practice! You are so excited and have been asking “is it the day after tomorrow” since Saturday morning! I love your excitement and love for life!
You start kindergarten in 2 weeks and I can’t believe it! I haven’t really wanted to believe that you are this big already. I didn’t practice your letters or counting with you as much as I maybe should have, but I wasn’t ready for you to start school. I wanted you to enjoy being a kid as long as possible! I know that once school starts, it will continue on for the rest of your life! There’s always more education to receive!
We spent your “last summer before school” going to Myrtle Beach, going to the zoo and Kings Island, fishing (with Daddy), playing around the house, going to VBS with Connor, going to story time at the library, and riding your bike! Daddy took your training wheels off the other day but you are still pretty nervous!
Cy, I am so proud of you and I love you more than I can say with words. I hope you never forget how loved you are. I hope you always believe in yourself and know you can do great things. And most importantly, I hope you know how much God loves you and I hope you will always put your trust in Him!
Love, Mommy