Thank you baby girl!

Dear Addie,

I’m so thankful for you. I praise God for giving you to me and I praise God that really you are His child! I feel so blessed that God gave me you. He trusted me with you. 

Baby girl, mommy has experienced God and his love and grace in ways I never had before you came into my life. I have had some of the best experiences of my life since the day you were born. I have experienced God’s presence in ways I cannot describe. It’s a beauty too beautiful to put into words. 

I still can’t believe it and still can’t explain it. I love you so deeply and I feel like I’ve been connected to you for so long. 

You have made me a better person. You have made me a better Christ follower. You made me realize how real my faith in God is. You made me long for heaven. 

You made me want God more than anyone or anything. I long to be with you again, but I am desperate to be with Christ for eternity. I am over the things of this world that were so appealing to me before. 

It wasn’t long ago that Mommy prayed that God would help me because I wanted to love him more than anyone, but it was really hard to love Him more than Daddy and Cy. I knew I wanted to go to heaven eventually, but I was hoping it would be a long time away because I was so focused on my own dreams of having 3 kids and watching them all grow up. I was in love with things that just don’t matter- all my memories, photographs, scrapbooks, photo books. I didn’t see how anything could be better than my sweet perfect family and all our sweet memories together. I tried to capture every moment and cherish every memory.

My heart has already changed. Nothing, absolutely nothing is better than spending eternity with my Savior, forever worshiping him! And while I’m still here, nothing is more important than seeking God and being close to him, doing whatever he calls me to do. 

I’m not going to be the perfect mom no matter how hard I try. I’m not going to be the perfect wife. I’m not going to be the perfect teacher. But I will constantly pray for God to use me while I am here and guide me to do whatever His plan is for my life. I want my life to honor him more than anything. I won’t be perfect, but His grace is sufficient for me! 

Thank you Addie for playing a part in how God changed my life. Changed my heart. Changed me. 

I love you sweet girl! Always and forever!!!!!





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